This song came out May 2016.
I would have been graduating from high school and turning 18 after this month. But I actually because I was in alternative school, I was progressing slower than my old classmates. I did return to mainstream school, but I had to stay another year to complete my requirements.
Not going to lie, I don't pay attention to lyrics and their meaning most of the time. So, when I listened to this song, I just related to it to my insecurities at that time and how I couldn't be like my peers. I recognized most of my classmates from when I first started high school after I came back. Everyone looked so different and I must have looked terrible.
When you're really listening to the lyrics, it's about this person who cheats on their partner and they're apologetic and want their partner back because the other person won't be like the partner. I guess that desperation is somewhat endearing. But I think situations like this is pretty pathetic and I can't relate to it because that could never be me.
Anyway, I like the song itself, the sound is such a timecapsule of this time and it reminds me when I trying to do better for myself. I've talked about my time in alternative school. I do resent that time of my life because I felt like I was robbed of experiencing the typical teenager high school life. I think I was pretty depressed and I was digging myself further into this pit by doing terrible in school. I wasn't motivated.
I don't know what it was. But suddenly I wanted to get out of there and go back to mainstream school and go to university. One of my teachers were going to teach a summer school course that summer and she was able to give me the material early so I could complete it. I had to go back to my original school and take the final exam and that was when I saw my old classmates. I did pass and I could take additional summer courses that summer to complete more requirements.
But yeah, I was at least able to go back to mainstream school but I was still sad that I wasn't on the same level as my peers. They went on to graduate and I stayed another year in high school. Which is fine, looking back. People did that. People also did a gap year and then did school. Some people don't even go to university after. I think I was insecure that I wasn't where I was supposed to be. But I think everything's okay now and it has been.