One of the first songs from The Smiths I've listened to.
I've first heard it sometime when I was a teenager. Probably after my metal phase. I was really into this softer sound when I was 15. I think maybe it has to do with where I was at that time in my life. The first two years of high school were memorable because I had friends and was in a mainstream school.
But I did go to alternative school for the rest of high school but before grade 12 (I returned to mainstream school for my last year). And during this time, I spent it alone. Our school was off the main school's campus, so it was only this small building. The other kids in my school didn't do well in mainstream school either. But I was different than them because I could tell that they had some sort of behavioural issues. For me, it was probably due to my ADHD and anxiety that I wasn't doing well. That is not to say that ADHD and anxiety aren't behavioural issues, but I could tell that some of the students purposely behaved terribly. Out of anger? Cry for help? I don't know and I didn't want to associate with them and I can't tell you their names because I don't remember.
And because I didn't relate to my classmates, I didn't hang out with them or speak to them. So for the three years I was alternative school, I didn't have friends that I hung out with regularly. And I guess that's why I was so drawn to music that was soft and sounded sad. I liked listening to The Smiths because I was able to feel connected because I lacked having relations with other people. Their music has a feeling of yearning but loneliness as well. I don't know to explain it but listening to them makes you feel whole but empty at the same time.