This song was released on her Norman Fucking Rockwell record which came out in 2019. I did go to her tour when she came to Vancouver. But I heavily associate this song with an ex boyfriend in 2020 or 2021.
I was living in my disgusting dorm at Marine Drive at UBC at the time. This was post-COVID and it was summer. I had a boyfriend and we didn't get along well but we tried so hard. We broke up three times and got back together twice. Drama, I know. But it's long past me.
After one of the times we broke up, I was sad and grieving because I really missed him. I listened to this record a lot during this time. This song was special to me because it captured a lot what I felt. I had this loyalty for him and I still wanted to be with him despite our differences.
I think this was my second "real" relationship because every other "relationship" wasn't really a relationship by definition. I learned that I really have an unconditional love for my partners because damn, he was terrible. But I am glad that I am not with him today because I would have been miserable. Still love the song tho.